God Is Love — Unpacking My Faith When Family Walks Away

I’ve been struggling with an issue within my life. I have been feeling like a failure that some of my family are so agnostic, atheist even. Lost a dearly loved cousin to suicide and my heart hurts for him. He was once a believer as a teen and then he was not. We had so many conversations through the years. Me trying to understand his rationale and he determined that I was just not very smart. He loved me in my ignorance. He wasn’t hostile to God like so many are, he just couldn’t prove it, so it didn’t carry weight for him. If he could not hold Him and duplicate him, analyze him and put him back together again, he didn’t exist.

My response was that all that was the reason I believed so certainly that he was God, has to exist, was the very same thing. I used to tell him, “Don’t make God so complicated.” God is love. Period. Understand the essence of those 3 words and you understand God.

My grandson is beginning to want to walk that path… one of discovery and proof irrefutable. My answer to him is take love apart and put it back together again, create it in a lab, explain it down to its very essence. Tell me where it begins, what it’s made of and how we have it or not and where it goes when we are no longer present on this plane. God is love.

I am so very thankful that my belief in God is not explainable. He is so much bigger than all of our minds and knowledge can comprehend. I am all the proof I need. I don’t want a God that can be written in an equation, I want one who is beyond comprehension.

I pray that the God you choose, we all choose one, is that big also.

Love, Pam