Want to Know What I Have Come to Realize?

Want to know what I have come to realize?

Well here goes nothing. Life is not fair. It is not equal. It’s hard and wrong in so many ways. It breaks my heart every single day and somedays it’s an all-day process. I want to be front row and center when the Devil gets his due. Yes, I do! I’m so looking forward to the day that trumpet blows. I hope he has to endure every heartache, every pain, ever sorrow for eternity. I really do feel terrible for him, how could he have given up, tossed away what he had for what he’s getting? Still what hurts even more is the knowledge that every day so many follow his path and think they are going to be ok in the end.

Yesterday I sat with a middle school child who is heartbroken. I can’t fix it, I gave everything I had and our country said, “not enough”. We (most of us) turned our heads and looked the other way. It was not important enough for us to speak out.

Yesterday I sat with a family in distress and knew I was powerless and ashamed that MY country is so callous. Yesterday I accepted a mother’s chickens, took responsibility for their wellbeing. Promised to care for them, feed them, keep them safe. I did the same for her child. The last thing we did was take a picture so she would have something tangible to hold, to remember with. We smiled for the camera while our hearts silently broke. I am sure that we all cried ourselves to sleep knowing that life changed today and will never be the same again.

I know that God has a plan. He tells us it’s a good plan. My heart is having a very hard time with it today.

If you do one thing today, let it be to pray for Norma.

Love, Pam